Map of the Problematique

I just wanted to hold you in my arms, you just electrify my life.
I cheat, I know, I'm copying lyrics by Muse, but they best reflect what I feel now.
Just to see his handsome face, just to see him gloriously moving. He is my dawn, he is my end, the end may be the best choice.
What else ?
One night, I've dreamt he would have liked date with me, just for one week, seven days of pure cheerfullness. But when I woke up, I had the bitter taste of something you would give anything to get it, but will never exist. And I glance at my scars, I remind when I cut myself, I was secretly praying you came and stopped me on the move.
You didn't.
Now my arms are covered by scars, that will prove for ever how my love for you were strong and destructive.
I fancy a world in where you trust in me, in where I can bring you all the originality of myself, in where we can be good friends, perhaps so much more...
that would be my perfect world, you are my perfect world.
If I had to compare us, I would say that I'm the average, and you're the absolute, you're my high. You give me all the peace I need, when you're around me, I feel higher, better, entier.
As if starlight were lighting me.

[Sorry if my english sucks -__-]